www.flickr.com

30 June 2001

your love and pray has make me strong: When everyone else blame me for what I not done. You always be at my side, hugh me, make me warm, and always support me. Say your pray for me and give your love that make strong to face this problem. I've realize you the girl that I always dream on. No mather how big differentces between us. But we make it small with our love. And if we can, we will make it none. We will united in holy love by God. I love you honey with all my heart.

#banjarmasin cronicles: Akhirnya inilah saat yang paling tepat untuk menceritakan apa yang terjadi selama ini. Dalam sebuah file banjarmasin.txt yang berisi cerita singkat seputar #banjarmasin. Satu harapan saya setelah semua ini kita bisa saling berdamai dan memaafkan. Karena tidak ada gunanya untuk tetap saling bermusuhan. Buat sahabat-sahabat gue kita semua bersaudara, dan saudara tidak menjatuhkan satu sama lain.

29 June 2001

#kesal#: kesal kesal kesal kesal kesal kesal

28 June 2001

-NickServ- The nick c1sc0- has been successfully dropped.: Goodbye darkside. May your memory burried forever under the darkness.

siklus@as18-114.brunet.bn: Menyusul agresi cyberlaw yang akan segera diterapkan oleh pemerintah. Semua teman-teman akhirnya sepakat untuk 'silent with the windblows'. Menunggu reaksi dari pihak Polri, pemerintah dan pihak ketiga yang nampaknya semakin memperkeruh keadaan.
Fabianclone sempat berbincang dengan gue mengenai masalah serius ini. Berikut cuplikan siklus.log yang sudah gue samarkan. Malam ini juga gue langsung mengadakan singkronisasi dengan beberapa teman lainnya. Untuk tidak memperkeruh keadaan atau bertindak ceroboh.
// silent is gold //
eF73> bener kan?
* eF73 juga lagi nunggu
eF73> dan semua orang yang sadar akan hal ini juga lakukan hal yang sama
eF73> semua orang yang gue amati.
eF73> yang sama sama bergerak kaya kita
eF73> semuanya diam
eF73> dan saling nunggu
eF73> ntah apa yang lagi terjadi di pemerintahan
* eF73 juga gak mo ikutan lagi :
* c1sc0- gue juga mo away aja ah
c1sc0-> sudah sumpek kalo mainnya begini
eF73> hehehehe
// end //

polda metro jaya: Looks who play the game++. Berlanjut dari thesis Donny B.U dan masalah jabar.go.id. Seorang inspektur polisi dari Polda Metro Jaya (berinisial "I") menelponku. Pertanyaannya berputar-putar dari a ke z dan balik dari z ke a membuatku kebingungan menjawabnya dan tidak mengerti apa maksudnya.
Memang terasa begitu janggal setelah kejadian demi kejadian susul menyusul semenjak masalah spears. Dan aku berada ditengah semuanya seolah menjadi senjata bagi kedua belah pihak untuk saling mencari informasi. Uh, aku punya perasaan buruk mengenai masalah ini. Salah seorang akan menjadi tumbalnya, pertanyaannya siapakah orang itu, siapakah yang mereka inginkan. Cukup satu orang kata Romo, semenjak dia keluar dari tim penasehat Polri. Namun siapa?

27 June 2001


*) My litle brother Wenas told me about this movie. Admit it this more better than Antitrust.


pika, pika, pika, chu: Pikachu GO! Sore, Madya epon gue. Gue kaget setengah mati karena sebelumnya Mia telpon kabarin Madya mudik sore hari ini. Tapi gue pikir main-main, sampai akhirnya Madya sendiri yang bilang pamit ke gue. Duh, sayang gue jauh banget gini, jadi gak sempat anterin dia. Lagian terlalu mendadak. Good lock bro! mudah-mudahan elo bisa hindarin tergoda dari barang-barang gituan lagi. I hope we meet again.
Merry juga sudah balik. Eh, gimana yah kabar ade gue yang satu ini. Preman sih dia. Ah, gue bingung-bingung kayak orang limbung begini. Aneh bener.

26 June 2001

banjarbaru: Alarm hp gue bagungkan gue jam 05:30 pagi ini. Sambil menahan kantuk gue bangun dengan limbung menuju kamar mandi. Brrr dingin abis. Jalanan sepi diluar sana masih berkabut tebal. Setebal asap kopi yang mengepul dari cangkir didepanku.
Sambil menunggu telor setengah matang yang kumasukkan ke dalam cangkir air panas tadi. Kureguk nikmatnya kopi instant cap plesetan channel milikku di dalnet. Kertas-kertas draft project masih berserakan di meja. Eh... hari ini tugas berat survey lapangan dan redaman transmisi. Hiks... away dari depan PC, away dari internet duh. Enak juga sih menikmati pemandangan alam, sekali-kali kan boleh. Abis suntuk bikin website didepan komputer terus.
Aduh telor setengah matangku lupa. Jangan-jangan udah jadi telor mateng. Sialan.

25 June 2001

migrate: I've been finishing migrating nameserver for some of my major domain name; others will be continue soon. After migrate cronos.sekuritas.net will be handling most of this nameserver. If everything goes fine as order, hosting will be taken at redhat.sekuritas.com.
+ ossiron.com
+ exterliant.com
+ intrapacket.net
+ balicamp.org
+ daissynet.com

dream: Darn-- I just stop thinking right now. My eyes fell so hard to open. My mind is flying to you. Time stil ticking behind the scene. You asking about how to dream. Oh, boy++ I never sleep anyway. I never dreaming again. But you has change that, you the one who can make me sleep again and again.

24 June 2001

trustix.sekuritas.net: Madya berhasil masuk ke trustix.sekuritas.net melalui exploit fingerd. Gue sempat kaget juga, seingat gue sekuritas.net sudah diamankan sedemikian rupa. Dan saking diamankannya, sampai saat ini putie.sekuritas.net masih belum bisa diakses via remote. Belum ada tanggapan dari Interliant, Corp. mengenai masalah ini. *Srugh* apa mungkin karena ada kesalahan pada server mail Internusa, Co.Ltd. Tapi setidaknya koneksi kami ke Netsol, Inc. masih berjalan baik, artinya tidak ada masalah dengan Internusa, Co.Ltd (lalu--).
Beberapa saat yang lalu redhat.sekuritas.net pun sudah up dan siap untuk di operasikan. Sayangnya gue masih kekurangan SDM untuk mengatur semua server-server ini. Hosting full akan segera dilakukan di trustix.sekuritas.net setelah gue secure hari ini. Tinggal menunggu foward beberapa domain.

daissynet.com: Dua atau tiga hari lagi webnya siap untuk uji coba. Sementara gue putuskan untuk hosting di sekuritas.net dulu. Setidaknya menunggu persiapan daissy.net.id berikut hostingnya. Ada beberapa ide dan masukan dari Ipunk mengenai kolom game dan doorprize, serta cewek gue (Meiling) kasih ide untuk kolom konsultasi masalah remaja dan dia sendiri bersedia untuk mengasuhnya. Well, its time for all thing to start now++

just for my mom: Sometimes I feel my heart so lonely but it's ok. No matter how my girl just left me and I don't care. Whenever the rain comes down and it's seems there's none to hold me. She's there for me, she's my mother.
Gue baru nyadar kalau, gue sama sekali gak pernah ada waktu buat sayangin mamah gue. Hiks, sekian lama gue terpisah dari mamah, baru gue sadarin kalau gue kesepian tanpa mamah. Sekarang mamah gue udah ada disamping gue lagi. Gue pingin sekali lagi buat bahagiain beliau, sayangin mamah gue. Just for my mom++

23 June 2001

Trustix Secure Linux release 1.2 (Sekuritas)
Kernel 2.4.12 Secure on an i686
login: master
Password:
Last login: Thu Jun 21 10:23:14 from 203.130.251.189
It is undignified for a woman to play servant to a man who is not hers.
-- Spock, "Amok Time", stardate 3372.7
[master@cronos master]$ su
Password:
... bacteriological warfare ... hard to believe we were once foolish
enough to play around with that.
-- McCoy, "The Omega Glory", stardate unknown
[root@cronos master]# /usr/sbin/useradd detikcom
[root@cronos master]# passwd detikcom
Changing password for user detikcom
New UNIX password:
Retype new UNIX password:
passwd: all authentication tokens updated successfully
[root@cronos master]#

thesis of donny b.u: I decided to help Donny B.U (Inet Reporter from Detik.Com); many of my friends disagree with that decission; but I have my own faith and oppinions on it. By the way it will be just between me and Donny; thats will not be involved what has Donny done to Jamie and Panca. And the other bad stories about Donny will not be affected into my cause and why I've been supporting him. But whatever the truth behind this thesis; I will be carefull enought to spend out spying on Donny back.
And Donny decission not use @detik.com email is the first step; so Detik.Com will not be spying arround with our bushiness. Event if R.M Suryo noticed me about the Police reaction following the case, it will be handled on other 'subject'. The mission has arranged; if some one is double crossing this thesis. I will be ready to stab back!

22 June 2001

renewal: As time goes by; I think I need to re-design my site. Blup! my secret diary with Meling now has been up. Yeah all is a week, if you think you really want to know about us. You should begin to find it here. Its just small page with nice coverup and story. Ah, about this site; what you think I should do. This site need renewal but into what? Give me suggestion.

21 June 2001

walking away: Bener ternyata kami sama-sama gak kuat untuk janji tidak bertemu satu minggu. Akhirnya sore tadi gue jemput Meling untuk "walking away" lepas dari semua kesuntukkan dan kertas-kertas draft web & project. Dia minta pendapat gue andai saja dia ubah warna rambut biru. Eh, bagus gak sih. Serius gak sih dia? Yang jelas gue seneng dia bagaimana dia saat ini. Cantik, imut, lucu, cerdas dan penuh perhatian. Gue pingin dia apa adanya dia, meski gue tau dia seneng banget bereksperiment dan mencoba sesuatu yang baru. Tapi haruskan warna rambut biru?

bootyman: Nge-WEB seharian bikin gue suntuk juga akhirnya. Lagu BootyMan-nya Craig David udeh berulang-ulang autoreply dari WinAMP v.7 gue, suaranya enak, lagunya asik, bikin gue betah berlama-lama dikamar. Empat surround speaker ama bazooka bener-bener buaikan gue dalam alunan lagu BootyMan. Tapi bukan hanya itu yang bikin gue ngebet ama lagu ini, terlebih karena lagu ini selalu dinyanyikan Meling tiap kali gue telpon dia, lagu ini selalu temani dirinya dikamarnya dan begitu pula gue. Nggak salah kalau akhirnya kami berdua bener-bener menyukai lagu ini.
BootyMan sendiri artinya kan seorang penjarah internet. Tapi gue bukan penjarah lagi, gue cuman main-main ajah kok. Lagian sekarang ada orang yang udah takecare gue, idup gue dan diri gue. Saatnya untuk jadi orang baik-baik, saatnya buat selesaikan proyek web-web ini, saatnya buat hidup seperti sedia kala.

morning: Pagi banget gue udah ketemu ama Meling :) he he he napah yah. Asli jodoh kali :) padahal dia SMS aku dan HP ku kebetulan lagi ketinggalan gituw mau di charge. Tapi yang namanya jodoh tetep ajah ketemu :) doh senengnyah.

help me!: God if there was You; please help me; I dont want everything ended rigth here; without something I know; I realy hate this felling; if I cant get near you.

remember: Remain me to download this chinese dictionary from http://www.euroasiasoftware.com/english/chinese/dictionary/. So I can learn well :)

20 June 2001

sebel: Sebel banget hari ini; mau SMS error; ICQ error; BLOGGER error; gimana coba? Kali guenya error juga nih, hiks. Yang nggak error cuman satu; MEILING. Ternyata kami sama-sama gak tahan janji gak ketemu satu minggu; akhirnya janjian ketemu di LC. Duh, jantung gue ampe deg-deg an gituw; abis dia imut-imut banget. Gak nyesel dah akhirnya gue bisa milikin dia. Makasih yah LING, kamu udah kasih tempat buat gue di hati kamu.

18 June 2001

love: I love her; I do; and I affraid if I had to loss her; because only with her I can fell and get this inspiration.

where are they: The project is leave unfinished, where are they. How about my payment, when they sent me. What supposed I told to wOnGEdAn and Ayam-Ngakak? God Why this thing become so unclearly.

16 June 2001

morning: weks... almost morning; home sleep home; bye.

Hey Kiky (She Likes Me For Me): she don't care about my job; she don't care about my money; and that's real good because I don't got alot to spend; but if I did it wouldn't mean nothin'; she likes me for me; not because I look like Kevin Mitnick; with the charm of Linus Trovalds; oozing out my ears; but what she sees; are my faults and indecisions; my insecure conditions; and the tears upon the pillow that I shed; she don't care about my iMac; or my collection of Final Fantasy CD's; things like that just never mattered much to her; plus she don't play to much PS-2; and she don't care that I can fly her; to places she ain't never been; but if she really wants to go; I think deep down she knows that; all she has to say is when; she likes me for me; not because I hang with Kiky; or that guy who played in "NeoPet"; I think his name is Madya; she's the one for me and I just can't live without her; my arms belong around her; and I'm so glad I found her once again; and I'm so glad I found her once again; and I'm so glad I found her once again; gazing at the ceiling; as we entertain our feelings in the dark; the things that we're afraid of are gonna show us; what we're made of in the end; she likes me for me; not because I programming like Bill Gates; or because I am such a hottie; I like her for her; Not because she's phat like Jewel; she has got so much to offer; why does she waste all her time with me; there must be something there that I don't see; she likes me for me; not because I'm tough like Superman; make her laugh just like Tweety; unlike the Silverster; but what she sees; Is that I can't live without her; my arms belong around her; and I'm so glad I found her once again; found her once again
I'm so glad I found her once again; on again. (thanks to Blessid Union Of Souls)

www.langoo.com: that's for her :) with double oo and all in chinesee word; I hope she love it.

SMS (its not so short afterall): I've been frustated waithing reply from her. Ouch... Mentari is lagged and error. Event after I change card from Simpati to Mentari; I send something and got reply nothing. But everything what happend just shocked my mind. She stop by to see me; and she was very happy for what happend tonight; she got my sms but se cant reply it. Until... she change provider number *lol* (thanks to Kiky for telling the number). And *poff* everything turn into something that I will never forget:
b: LING, I LOVE YOU!
b: DO YOU LOVE ME?
m: I LOVE YOU TOO!
*Brak* my cellular got robbed my Kiky *lol*. He wrote something :) back and reply it to her. Ouch... *jambu* !!! Darn...

love: the word is so simple; but it has so deep meaning; understanding is not enought to describe what is love; you need to feel it so you will find what is love; one year I've been keep this feeling; deep in my bottom heart; waitin` for the right moment; the right time; for me and for her. once I meet her; is enought for me to know; if she is the right girl for me; her eyes; her smile is always on my dream; her voices; her cheerfull; her laugh; make me someone that I never before; her heart; her soul; her mind; is everything that completely understand me differently than anyone else; she the only one who can tear my heart apart and united it back to one piece; I do love her; above everything that mather in this life and I always will. Thanks honey; you had been make my life more that I was before; you had been found that what missing on my heart. And that was you ... your love.

12 June 2001

defiance: have I see my brother; have I see my sister; once again they had been betrayed me; hurt is too much hurt. Dealing with the second project; I had been made wonderfull progress with the first talk; negociation is succesfull.

11 June 2001

inetd.conf: too much opened port can caused trouble; but too much closed one; can be disaster too. life is like inetd.conf; you can close your self from public; also you can too much open from them. be wisely; upgrade it to xinetd.conf; like they always said it more secured. deciding what to decide from all of the *saga*; it might be wise to seek out new thing outside my homeland. but I just meet her (meling) and she said; she wont let me go; she want me at her side forever.

08 June 2001

httpd.conf: puyeng; seting httpd.conf buat sekuritas.net belum selesai juga; orang-orang trustix sudah mulai kasak-kusuk; cronos belum up; doh... kapan? Jakarta Project (TomCat) Apachenya bubar.

MY LOVE, MY LIFE, MY INSPIRATION



M E L I N G aka D E W I H A R T I N I
Moga lekas sembuh sayang; abang akan selalu ada didekatmu; menjagamu; merawatmu dan menyanyikan lagu cinta buatmu. Abang sayang kamu; cinta kamu selalu. Love You!

07 June 2001

A-Open: while featuring betalmostdone site. Again this my brother who expert with site enginering.

Putie: with litle private chat, I know she really energic & creative girl. My pleasure to have one sister like her. After lil mia, lil sista, lil litha, lil rika now God bless me with lil putie. I hope, I can be good brother for them.

06 June 2001

Rearranged: after and after the problem caused by Blade has become uncontroled; I think it really need some big and major diversion. Me and my friend must dare to face Blade; and told him what really happend. But ... it must be rearranged!

Bong Me Ling: honey I need you; I need away from all of this messup for one moment again; I just wanna fall a sleep in your arm; holding me with your warm love; easy my pain; release my problem. Cause only with you I can feel the sweet of life; the happines of time. I Love You.

Wilmate: the project has become uncontroled; all people seem look for their own money and safety; and what should I do. I am in the middle of hardwork that I doesnt have to be there; thankfully I can safe them out from it; and let me do the dirty work. Lately it has cause me pain; I dont have to say more; I just wanna get rid all of it by my self; just shut the fuck off.

05 June 2001

FUCK I have to start all over again; kloset is realy cannot be saved. Brain call me and said sorry for my data *gone*. I just laugh; nothing can be done to save it. Damn!; kloset now compiled with rh-secure; I decided to leave mdk-secure; cause I'm not to familiar with it. Also my FreeBSD from rajendra; I just *slip* it into cd-rack; dont know when use it.

04 June 2001

Tiramisu kloset.localhost after midnigth before morning (03:00am) Brain, Blade, Gates & A-Open visiting my home. I almost fall a sleep after upgrading kloset (my local remote pc) to mdk-secured kernel. After performing some nice new eggies; Brain take over my console and working around with *dump* winblows. I keep waching with my eyes keep heavy to stay awake; Brain keep *sucked* all my latest development script; dont know how many disk he just wasted for it. I fall to sleep.
Early morning (06:30am) they woke me up; with *slaps* on my face; bad news; kloset just *hang* no response; blank; die; for the first I think I only losses my *mbr*; but I redouble check; got the HDD is fdisked; I lost 3yrs data; without no backup; whole of my script; document; web development and the important thing is; I lost my xxx pic colections; damn.
Past morning (08:30am) tiramisu doesnt help me alot of getting my HDD data back; all I have to do now is installing new OS; ah shit; shit; *Segmentation fault: core dumped*

03 June 2001

Daybreak: After whole nigth got *blumped* by eth0 at last I can resolv my ne.o problem at modules.conf now metronet router finished and working well. Got two days for tested before it launched to public. One IP class there (suck my dick). Btw, I read all the post at jasakom again and wHaTaFuCk its really piece of shit.

01 June 2001

Morning ahead: I got wake up by stupid SMS from Brain (Herry) my designer graphic. God... forget to pickup Frontpage & Photoshop cd's from him. And this fuckin IRC Plus cd still lefted at my home. Its about nine and I got to work fast with my router modem. Help me God!

Official Press Release


Mengenai artikel Jasakom (S`to)



(meditation has make me wise man)
Bukan main terkejutnya gue ketika dicaci maki oleh S`to (Susanto) salah seorang admin Jasakom mengenai pembobolan server Brinkster, yang gue sendiri tidak mengetahui hal tersebut. Hanya karena saat itu gue menggunakan nick fabianclone. Dan nick itu sendiripun baru saja gue gunakan kurang lebih tiga minggu. Dan nick fabianclone bukanlah milik Fabian K. (admin Compaq), karena Fabian K. menggunakan nick FC.
Saat itu juga S`to (Susanto) memaksa gue untuk memasuki server Jasakom (Brinkster) tanpa alasan yang jelas. Terus terang malam itu juga gue sedang menjelajahi isi server IndosatNet. Sampai besok paginya gue laporkan kebocoran server itu kepada Kurniawan & Suryo (admin IndosatNet) dan Donny B.U (reporter detik.com). Gue putuskan untuk tidak mengekspos hal tersebut bersama hasil deface lainnya (plnjaya & b2boptik) karena mengingat reputasi PT.Indosat di dunia internasional.
Mengejutkan sekali saat S`to (Susanto) kembali mencaci-maki gue dengan menunjukkan hasil deface di b2boptik yang telah di modifikasi. Terus terang gue cukup tersinggung dengan isi deface tersebut yang mengatas namakan gue (fabianclone) dan masih dalam format html yang sama. Gue bertambah curiga terhadap tingkah laku S`to (Susanto) yang tampak kehabisan akal untuk memojokkan gue, karena gue masih punya deface asli yang di mirror oleh alldas.de.
Beberapa jam kemudian kembali S`to (Susanto) mengejutkan gue dengan artikel yang dia tulis di Jasakom. Saat itu dia menanyakan gue apakah gue keberatan, dan dia bersedia memodifikasi. Namun ternyata artikel tersebut tidak dirubah, sehingga isinya sangat kurang mengenakkan posisi gue.
Pagi harinya gue mendapat telpon dari Indosat mengkonfirmasi masalah bugs di server mereka. Jam 12 siang saat gue bikin tumis cumi saos tiram, orang-orang dari Konsultan Bandung menelpon gue untuk segera menyelesaikan sebuah proyek di pemerintahan di kota gue. Sekitar dua hari gue off chating dan internet (back to work) he he he.
Malam hari ke tiga usai dari proyek, gue sempatkan untuk menjenguk #betalmostdone. Dan betapa mengejutkan sekali ketika tiba-tiba seorang rekan gue Crafter`13 (Ryan dari Malaysia) melontarkan caci maki yang saat tidak beradab, tanpa menjelaskan terlebih dahulu permasalahnya. Memang gue akui Ryan suka membuat masalah terhadap anak-anak lain, contohnya menembak named di server scoix.com sehingga server tersebut crash dan me rm -rf server yang sedang di deface Tr0ya (Hilman). Tingkah laku iseng Ryan tersebut selalu dimaafkan oleh saya sendiri juga teman-teman. Dan mungkin begitu pula dengan tingkah lakunya kali ini.
Yang jelas gue sudah cukup terganggu dengan ulah orang-orang yang selalu sirik. Ingatlah "sirik tanda tak bisa", gue inget ketika Bosen (Agus) selalu mengatakan itu. Saya sendiri maupun FC (Fabian K.) tidak pernah mempermasalahkan hal ini. Namun pada kenyataannya pihak Jasakom yang servernya sebentar lagi pindah khususnya S`to (Susanto) tidak mempunya pemikiran yang sama dengan kami. Jadi siapakah yang bersifat kekanak-kanakan? siapakah yang mengadu domba? Agaknya gue tidak perlu menjelaskannya, Anda semua sudah cukup dewasa untuk menilainya.
Sebenarnya ini berkaitan dengan kondisi bisnis Jasakom sendiri. Artinya dibobolnya server mereka oleh FC (Fabian K.) cukup membuat coreng wajah mereka yang mengaku sebagai pemerhati sekuritas internet atau pentutorial hacker (maaf kalau saya salah). Dimana sih mau taruh muka bicara tiap hari masalah hacking dan sekuriti eh server sediri bolong. He he he. Viva betalmosdone`d.